Random Thoughts...

When she was caught up in a whirlwind not knowing how to feel, realizing that nothing that she thought was the real deal, losing grip of everything that she thought was real... That's when she realized that's what her soul needed to feel, that this life changing journey had just gotten real...

Last week was hard, it needed to happen, and it was the best thing that could have happened, but my last connection with what I thought was my present was cut off. No need to go into it, yet I am happier than I could imagine. It has been a few days of soul searching (and partying and enjoying), but I feel like I am in a much better place than I was before I began this journey.

I have been thinking a lot, and reading a lot. I have been spending a lot of time with myself, and I can finally say that I think coming to Thailand was the best decision I have ever made. I have vowed to have an hour of silence a day. This doesn’t mean that I only not speak, but I don’t watch movies, read books, or listen to music. I spend time alone, trying to clear my head. Trying to stop thinking. I have come to believe that silence of the mind, when we clear it of all other thoughts, is the only way of finding out what our true innate desires are. When we find out who we are and what we want, in all aspects of our life.

This, plus running, plus meditation, yoga, and time alone has become my routine. I have so much clarity, so much direction, and so much positive thinking and happiness in my soul, spirit, and heart that there is no other place I would rather be. That or I’m reading too much Deepak Chopra….

I came here because I was lost… Yet I have found to realize that the problem does not lie on being lost. We are all lost, at one point or another... Those who say they are not or haven’t been in my eyes are small minded. They are people who never truly let their inner thoughts and mind connect. Being lost and searching for ones way is the greatest pathway to growth. For when we search for ourselves we learn, we live, and we grow. We just have to make sure that when we are lost, we keep up ways of making our mind, body, and soul grow. That we don’t neglect any aspect of our lives, or the huge opportunity that lies in being lost. The problem is not being lost. The problem is becoming stagnant, and finding comfort in seeking the wrong direction. We know what is right and we should pursue that while searching for whatever it is that we need to find.

Just some random thoughts...

-I love to love. Love to live. And live to travel… A modern day gypsy.