First Week of Teaching

June 12, 2012

Yesterday was my first real day of teaching. I wnt into the classroom having absolutely no ida what I was going to do but some how I managed to wing it.

I'm still trying to gage the students English abilities which in most cases are non existent. Still being in the classroom feels natural and fun. In the morning I was given a microphone and was told to introduce myself to about 1500 students. It was embarrassing but fun.

The students make me feel great, they all greet me all the time and tell me I'm beautiful. I have to say they make me feel truly blessed to teach them.

I went home after school and worked out (did a jail cell workout) and read and entertained myself. I have found solitude to be my worst enemy; not only do I question myself, my thoughts, my decisions, my past, my future and everything else in the realm of my reality but I also question everyone in my life... Like my co-worker said "its not about what I am planning to do when I get back, it's about what the changed me will want and will do".

If anything, this experience is already making me a better, stronger, more solid, more selfless person. Depending on only me, questioning myself, and defining clearly what I want and need as a person is setting a pathway that I am bound to follow. A pathway that when crossed by other people will be met by someone who can give and receive a lot more than the person I was yesterday.

PS. My motherboard on my computer broke so all of this has been journaled by hand like in the good old days and copied. Yet one more defining rough patch that will add to the experience.